Christina's Journal

Mon, 08 Sep 2003 18:41:24 GMT

It's really nice being home. Don't get me wrong I love living in London, it's so beautiful, but you know how home is, it really is where the heart is. Did that sound sappy or what?

I leave to go back to London in a few weeks. There's a lot of editing to do on my album, and we just gotta get it PERFECT. Now they are telling me Spring of 2004. It doesn't bother me though, I want it to be the best that it can be!

Ashleigh and Nixie are staying with me tonight. It's good, we all agreed we needed a girl's night in. We're going to rent chick flicks, eat stale popcorn, and give eachother manicures and pedicures.

I ran into Nick yesterday. I was shopping for some clothes, and I was going up the escalator and as I got to the top, he was just about to step on the one that went down. He stopped and we sat down on a nearby bench and chatted. We even talked about why we broke things off. He told me that, he just couldn't keep up with me, and the distances, I agreed. Then we agreed to get together sometime before I leave. He still has some of my stuff, and I still have some of his. But I doubt that it will happen. I do miss him, sometimes, but if it was meant to be, we'll get another chance once again.

Tue, 05 Aug 2003 22:20:05 GMT

I think I'm the only person in the world who enjoys going to sleep in makeup. I woke up this morning, and looked in the mirror. It was really funny, I should've taken a picture of it. My hair was all frizzed up since I left the window open, and my eyeliner was smeared across my face. Not to mention my lips looked more Bozo-like than ever. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I were to walk around in public like that.

I woke up at 1:51 today. Oh, it was my day off. That probably would have made more sence if I started it off like that, but I'm not going to edit it. I decided to make myself pancakes since I haven't had those in a million years. There's this tiny stove in my flat that's absoulutely adorable. Yes, it was even adorable when it nearly caught fire on my oven mit. After being completely satisfied with my semi-burnt masterpiece, I went searching for the syrup for an hour. And alas, I didn't find any. Why am I updating about searching for syrup?

I think I'm going to watch that show 'The OC,' today. It's not like they promo-ed it to the point where I've been brainwashed into loving it before it actually airs. I've been to Orange County before, and it's a beautiful place. I mean, that's where Knott's Berry Farm is and that's only the best amusement park in the world. Okay.. well not the entire world. Because Disneyland is pretty close to Knott's and Disneyland has Meeko. But anyways, I think I have that one song 'California' stuck in my head. "CALIFORNIA CALIFORNIA.." I don't know the rest.

American Juniors is on tonight. Thank God for sattilite. I heard that Simon was going to be making a special appearence, and that just scares me. I mean if I were a kid, and on that show, and Simon were to say, "You suck, go away," then I'd naturally be scarred for life. Let's hope that he'll magically become Santa Claus-like, and adore kids to death. Hey, it could happen. ~~Okay, maybe not.~~

I love the fog. But I love Nikki McKibbin more.

Tue, 29 Jul 2003 00:28:05 GMT

Livejournal ate my entire journal, gave it back, ate it again, and gave it back. I think it needs Midol.

Oh God. I'm obsessed with Paradise Hotel. Am I the only person who would miss Dave if he left? Yes, I get Fox in London. That's what digital cable is for.
Whines, whines, whines I miss my dog. I need to be on that show True Life: I'm Obsessed With My Dog, except I'm not really obsessed.

Holla back if you read this. I don't care who you are, just leave a comment about how much livejournal likes to pms.

WTF I am not thoughtful, and I am not listening to Nickleback!

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 06:52:07 GMT

Happy birthday tamyra_gray!

I'm also updating to pimp my new icon. It looks like I'm about to sneeze. Love it or else.

I pretty much sat around all day, watching movies and prank calling people. I got a day off, and unfortunately I'm no where near Tamyra so I can't party off like a crazed psycho with her. Oh and Keith Urban is my new hero. If you don't know this song, I'll hurt you.

Well on a random note, I'm thinking about flying over to New York to catch the Albany Idol concert. I'm jealous of everyone who saw it so far. I heard that some fans were throwing long johns, and condoms at the poor kids. Wow, y'all have interesting fans.

My journal's a year old now. Happy birthday journal!

Sat, 12 Jul 2003 08:34:55 GMT

Justin was on that new Tom Green show a couple nights ago. I caught the part where he was on a stick horse, singing 'Home Home on the Range.' Oops, that was actually hot too.

I'm in London now. I can actually see what all the fuss was about. Despite the long trip over, and being forced to sit by a screaming baby, it's been pretty great so far. I met up with someone with a huge sign reading 'Christianna Christian.' I love how everyone spells my name right these days! So I got used to being on the wrong side of the road. It only took 10 minutes of clutching onto the seat cushion for dear life. I'm serious, this taxi driver was crazy. I got over to the hotel where I'd be spending the next month in. I'm already in love with it. Seriously, I haven't found one thing wrong with it.

I better get going. It's 9:33 AM here, and I'm still stuck in Florida time. Do the math, I'm tired. :P

Hi Nikki! :-*

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 00:39:19 GMT

Nikki and Justin are back! I'm glad that they didn't let their journals die. :)

I sat up most of the night and thought some things out. Actually a lot of things. I'd rather not bore you all to death going into full detail.

I went and saw 'Charlies Angels: Full Throttle' last Friday. It was really good too. Don't you just hate it when there's a group of preteens saying "LIKE EW OH MY GOD EW," after people kiss, or after a cow is giving birth? Don't ask. They kept on calling all the men "Sexy mamis." I still don't know how that works either. Sometimes I wish that preteens were banned from movies like that. It kills me to know that I probably missed really key parts, just because a group of teenies wouldn't shut up. I think I'm going to worship Cameron, Drew, Lucy and Demi for making such a great movie.

I'm so happy for the second season of American Idol. Their tour started. I'm sure there'll be tons of memories that'll last a lifetime. Have fun you guys!

Sat, 05 Jul 2003 07:15:53 GMT

Happy day after the 4th of July! I should have updated 7 minutes ago.

I went and watched a community fireworks deal. It was pretty nice, just being able to blend in with the crowd and be awed by the vibrant colors. It was adorable to have this crowd of kids saying "WHOA! WOW!" every time fireworks would touch the sky. It did get a little old after...say ten minutes. I love how young kids are easily amused by things like fireworks. I take fireworks for granted. Each year they look the same, but this year I was a kid all over again. I caught myself "Ooo-ing," and "Aww-ing," a couple times. I even shook when they shot off the canon! This night was incredible. Actually it wasn't incredible, it was amazing.

So now that it's officially July 5th, I'd like to start the "Hi. It's Tamyra Gray's birthday on the 26th" count down. I haven't seen her in the longest time.

Here's some random information. A year ago yesterday, I was placed in the final 10. It just doesn't seem like it was that long ago. To me, it's still the summer of 2002, not 2003! I hate how I live through the past, I never have a chance to enjoy the present.

I think Kelly removed me from her friend's list. This makes me mourn inside. Unless LiveJournal is being mean, and not making her name bold on my user info, I have reason to be sad.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 10:52:34 GMT

Contrary to popular belief, I'm still alive.

Have you ever felt like yelling into a pillow just because the world seems upside down? Oh, nevermind..it's probably just me.

I'm trying to figure out why I can't stay on one topic long enough to write three sentences. So I'll write about some awesome news.

I'm going to London to finish up recording. I'll probably be around towards the end of July and most of August. And I'm pretty sure I won't be missed. But anyway, there is an amazing recording studio stationed there. But hey, it's London, and I'm not complaining! I'll finally get to see what the huge fuss is. And I'll get to poke the guards and everything. Of course I'll get time to enjoy it all. It's not like I'm fully against everything life throws at me.

I really miss everyone. Once again I find myself in hiding. I hate being anti-social like this. Everyone kept on disappearing, so I subjected to peer pressure and disappeared also. And I'm not coming back until Justin Guarini comes back from the dead either!

I heard Guarini might be doing time. But the news lies.

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 21:30:27 GMT

Hi. If you didn't know, it's my birthday. I'm finally 22, if anyone really cares. I can't believe that somehow I've managed to ignore a major part of my life. I can't be 22, I barely remember being 21.

Kelly's kidnapping me later. How hot.

Thu, 19 Jun 2003 01:43:12 GMT

Does anyone read my journal anymore? I wouldn't blame you if you didn't. My life is as interesting as a new puppy. You think that it's the best thing in the entire world, and then one day you ignore it because it gets boring. Boring perfectly explains me right now.

Kelly and I talked yesterday. It was great because it's been a whole two weeks since I last saw her. She told me about the horrors that were two J2K premieres. She's a hard working person, and also my new found hero. Are we the only two people on the face of the earth who miss Eureeka's Castle and The Elephant Show?

Justin Guarini called a couple contestants on American Juniors gorgeous. Should I be afraid that this is the early symptoms of R.Kelly-itus? Ew.

Murphy Lee is too nice. He didn't want me to die of heat. Now if that isn't friendship material, I don't know what is.

Fri, 06 Jun 2003 04:52:36 GMT

I've been hiding from everyone lately. Maybe it's because life has been hectic, or because I've decided that I need to find myself. Either way, I'll be back soon. I miss my Tamyra and Kelly too much to continue hiding like this.

I can't get myself to sleep. I guess it's back to watching more infomercials on tv.

Hi Ruben. I've requested your song about 20 times in the last half an hour. Your cd is going to be awesome.

Wed, 28 May 2003 02:29:37 GMT

American Idol is no longer a G rated show. After being scarred for life from a certain porno moment, I worry for young children everywhere. You can't tell me it's harmless with certain 'noises' in the background >:o. Don't get me started on those Herbal Essences commercials with Carmen.

RJ called me today. I can honestly say I was surprised. It was great talking to him, especially since I barely got a word with him at the finale. I was just too excited for my Ruben, you can't blame me. Did I mention that RJ's going to be in a movie called 'Mrs Johnson'? Yeah, that was a shameless friend movie plug. Oh by the way From Justin To Kelly is coming soon. You better see it, or I'll hunt you down!

I'll try and write more tomorrow. Right now I'm plotting ways to marry foolishjustin_g. What a sexy beast :-*!

Mon, 26 May 2003 04:27:24 GMT

Kelly and I have decided we like foolishjustin_g better than j_guarini so..

Sun, 25 May 2003 16:33:34 GMT

Apparently American Idol is now cheap because they didn't go all out this year on the finale and I really think that Ruben and Clay deserved the Kodak theater. But I had a good time it was nice seeing some old faces, I haven't seen RJ since the tour. I brought my dog and like a good boy he did harm to Carmen, but it's still all about Trenyce for me hi baby :-* Ruben and Clay are going to be huge and your records are going to be number one of course so congratulations to the both of you.

They raised the budget on the Idol tour this year they are doing some bigger venues, and going all out on it while ours was just kind of thrown together last minute. Then again we got the bigger finale. I can't wait until my album is finished, I've written or co-written every song on it so far. It has a lot of different sounds to it, I'm really proud of it, we are taking it slow because I'm finishing school at UF first and in December I will graduate with a degree in sociology. But if things go my way it doesn't look like I'll be needing it.

I had a much longer update in store but I'm lazy so bye.

haha

Sun, 11 May 2003 05:52:29 GMT

I find it extremely disturbing that Jesus will get a journal before Nick Cannon.

Tue, 01 Apr 2003 20:41:15 GMT

I personally wonder what FOX and Simon Fuller are thinking, what does shoplifting, showing your breasts, or being arrested have to do with the amount you can sing? I know America is looking for an idol or a role model but come on, I just think it's stupid.

Anyway Jim and I got married over the weekend, I told you he was straight.

boston public is on <3

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 01:00:34 GMT

I guess I'm due to update in this thing considering my last update was really nothing but a pimpage and how much I despised Craig David and all. Not too much is different in my life. Honestly nothing seems different. I find myself ending up where I left off before American Idol. I mean sure what I do on a day by day basis is much different. Before I attended classes and football games with my fiance and now I'm recording an album and working hard on it. I'm still also doing the TV Guide thing which is really fun for me I'm getting a chance to be little miss reporter. But I still feel like the same person, I don't necessarily know if that is a good or a bad thing.

In other news Kelly and I are trying to burn Craig's house down with him in it, we really are violent but he is stealing my girlfriend and this is not acceptable. He is a great guy for her as much as I want to admit it. I guess I will have to steal Kelly now, sorry Clay :-[ but I love her lots and I don't want to lose her too. Then there is Ryan who rarely updates but goes out in public just as often as she showers but I love her too. I haven't really kept in touch with that many people from American Idol. I was more of the mother figure in the house, the responsible one. I made sure everyone woken up and had eaten a meal, sometimes forgetting myself which landed me in the hospital the day I was voted off but really don't get me started on that. I've always paid too much attention to others and not enough to myself. I really need a vacation. I can't wait until Kelly and Justin release the movie and both of their albums so then I can enter my way into the public once again and mesmerize the public with my talent and skills ;) And I am also starting to see why Gareth hates Simon Fuller and 19 Management.

So I believe it's offical that I am the worst updater ever, oops.

Fri, 14 Mar 2003 00:37:46 GMT

c_aiken!!

So Craig David stole my girlfriend, Tamyra, so I will plot to kill him.

Wed, 26 Feb 2003 19:39:22 GMT

Time for a semi-real update. Tamyra did wonderful on Boston Public last night you're a natural babe. I've also been doing some acting, smaller parts. I was on CSI last week, I played a professional basketball player's wife. The kids got kidnapped and I don't know but that is just about my favorite show and to be on it was just awesome. Speaking of shows American Idol sucks this year, there are a few good people and if Corey and Josh don't get through tonight then America is crazy or whoever does make it on must have gave the producers some good head.

Kelly is never home because of that stupid movie I think I am going to fly down to Miami and kidnap her because Tamyra falls asleep too early and snores. But they are both really great roommates I just hate getting up in the morning to get the mail and people will be outside and ask, "where's Kelly and Tamyra?" where is the love, people. Haha. So I made Corey some promises if he makes it tonight I'm kind of frightened. I really need to find something other than American Idol to update about. Maybe my next update will be all about Elisha. Hi baby.

So this icon is kind of scary.

Sat, 22 Feb 2003 05:23:46 GMT

So yeah I was on CSI last night.

Mon, 10 Feb 2003 22:21:57 GMT

Living with my Boston Public lovable ghetto whore Tamyra is funny as anything. When she cooks she likes to walk around the kitchen with no clothes on and chirp like a bird. I taped it and I'm sending it to America's Funniest Home Videos. It should be great you should watch it. Right now I'll take the time to express my love for charles_grigsby. Tamyra loves him too but he loves me more I win. He asked me out a couple of days ago and we went out Saturday night. He's been really busy with American Idol but for now he has some time to relax. It's amazing because we both know what each other is going through right now. Oh well I love him a lot and that's the end. Hi baby. :-* We're going out again soon I hope. It all depends on his schedule. Simon be jealous.

I still hate livejournal.

Thu, 30 Jan 2003 23:07:31 GMT

Jesus christ it's the invasion of the American Idol 2 kids. Anyway k_caldwell is mine, and jd_adams, he is also mine. I will share JD, but you'll have to back off Kimberly. I am also in love with Frenchie and Julia and everyone else that is taking over my friends page. I also think that Simon is a lot nicer this year. I mean sure if you suck he's going to call you on it, but I think overall he has been much nicer. So consider yourselves lucky kids.

I can't wait for Tamyra's Boston Public episodes to air, she does a great job, she's really a good actress and that makes me wonder how many times she has lied to me about her sexual relations with Jim. Speaking of Jim I am trying to talk him into doing the Full Monty, since he's doing broadway and all but he's not buying into it all. And I still need that paid account since Simon is an asshole :)

i hate livejournal.

Tue, 17 Dec 2002 23:08:37 GMT

I'm moving in with Tamyra, it seems easy, now I can just follow her to work considering that's where I spend most of my time recording. Then I've been taking some classes online. Actually this update was just for the picture I'm gonna post below:

the breakup..

Wed, 11 Dec 2002 21:23:09 GMT

I am extremely embarassed of the new Old Navy commerical. It was cute when I first saw it, but now knowing its on national television..

My fiance, Nicholas, and I are taking a break or breaking up if you wish to call it that. I'm hardly ever home and I hate to see him home paying the rent by himself and spending so much time alone. I don't think it's fair to him, or myself. I think I'm doing the right thing, at least I hope I'm doing the right thing. I've been avoiding Tamyra and Kelly lately, I've felt bad about it considering they are two of my best friends but I haven't been the most pleasant person to be around the past few days. They say you can't be a failure if you have friends. And I do, and I love them, but right now I don't know if I can stand to be around anyone so I'll stay mia for awhile.

I'm being overly dramatic. I hope it gets some attention. I want to be an attention whore. I've never been one before, so today I'm going to be an attention whore and cry because I'm going to miss Nick. I've spent the last few years of my life with him, he's become my other half and now I'm leaving him, am I a horrible person? I'd like to think I am for doing this. I can't explain why I am doing it. I can't explain why I gave him back his ring and why I packed my bags and moved my stuff back into my mom's. I'm not in Florida now, I'm in LA, recording. I don't want to go back home, my mom doesn't even know what happens, she'll be crushed. She loved Nick.

A handful of years worth of words and I remember every single one. And now, from this position I can look and know that he really meant them, and he kept all of those promises. I don't know why I left. Maybe I got bored. I do that, with my friends and my interests, but without Nick I never would have done American Idol. I never would have even had a chance to get bored, maybe doing American Idol was a mistake. I don't have any regrets. I could babble on for days about how I think I'm making the biggest mistake of my life. And still not know why I have this gut feeling to leave, to get away from this life. To go be my own person. Not Christina Cewe, Christina Christian.

That's who I'm focusing on now, me.

pretend it's alright..

Fri, 06 Dec 2002 22:11:13 GMT

So Adriel and Tamyra broke up. Turns up he was gay..

I can't imagine what she must be feeling right now, I don't know what I would do if I were told Nick was gay. He's my better half. Anyway I've been recording alot lately, I'm proud of the way my album is going. I'll update more later I'm in a hurry.